I already heard from lots of people how stressed they were after graduating without a job...
You know pressure and stuff..
But it's not like it's hard for me to look for a job..
It's just.. honestly it's between scared and lazy..
I felt anxious the whole day because I know I really have to show up for this rare opportunity..
So I ended up coming..
I've experienced rejection before and wasting efforts by trying to approach people before..
I just that was traumatic for me?
But this time.. I'm just glad it went well..
The thing is.. I'm not sure.. I still feel uneasy...
(..and of all things I was able to watch a show full of intimidating peeps.)
I've only realized this now..
I have this fear of scary people..
I'm scared of being lectured in a rude way or just even encountering an intimidating person..
I might just cry..
I just can't tell this to everyone since I already know what am I to hear..
Like it's a way to make me stronger and such..
I don't know if I'd soon feel good as I continue to work there..
But I really hope I would..
